i am a ball of confusion

i am a confusion ball. tonight i was at a babyshower and found myself wandering around just IN MY HEAD. i wasnt listening to anyone. i was just thinking. it was weird because it took a while to realize i was thinking. hmmm. right. anyway, i was thinking 'man i wanna talk to ___' so when i got home, i went online and ___ wasnt there. ___ was gone today until later so ___ signed on at about 10 45 it was weird it felt like the longest wait ever. i am a ball of confusion. in my head. hows that (___) for confusion in itself? lol.